Hello. I’m back. I hope I can commit to writing in this blog regularly. Haha.

I stumbled upon a list I made back in 2011. These are the goals I lost sight of over the years. The goals that I didn’t bother or care much to work towards. I hope that I can find my groove again. Putting this out there again. Hopefully, things work out.

  1. Develop relationship with God ❤
    1. Participate in Youth groups?
    2. Bible study sessions?
  2. Spend time with family and friends.
    1. Never ending list of opportunities.
  3. Be the best I can be.
  4. Participate & finish a triathlon.
    1. Train in running.
    2. Relearn and Train in swimming.
    3. Learn and train in biking. :))) Yes, I don’t know how to ride a bike. 😥 =))
  5. Get fit and lose 15 lbs. (boo. I gained back the 5lbs I lost. So sad. Well, not really. It’s a joy to eat kasi.)
    1. Swimsuit-ready body! (dare I say bikini. hahahaha nashy ako bigla.)
    2. Reach my goal weight. 🙂 hihi (Oh I can’t disclose that. A lady never tells. 🙂
  6. Grasp Mandarin. I will. I will. I will. Learning a new language is a joy, a challenging joy. :))
    1. Learn how to write Chinese characters.
    2. Learn how to speak well in Chinese.
    3. Once I grasp the basics of Mandarin, PRACTICE. (Paging: Mandarin speaking friends.)
  7. Get into a good law school. (pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease)
    1. Find a specialization.
      1. International Law?
      2. Intellectual Property
      3. Environmental Law
  8. Develop and maintain self-confidence. And trust in abilities.
  9. Develop cooking & baking skills.
    1. take classes. (Paging Kuya Carlo!)
    2. Cook for my family & friends.
    3. Cook for myself. :)))))
  10. Volunteer somewhere.
    1. Target: Kythe foundation ❤
  11. Travel as much as I can.
    1. USA Trip (January-February 2012)
    2. HK. (2012)
    3. Vietnam (2012)
  12. Learn another language.
    1. Italian
    2. French
    3. Spanish
  13. Get a good job. (one day)
  14. One day, get that dual masters degree in law from the National University of Singapore and NYU.
    1. And from this program, take the NY Bar Exams and PASS. (THIS. I shall accomplish this! No matter how long it takes! No matter what happens!)
    2. A comment: A girl can dream. dreaming is free. So go ahead and dream big. Even if you won’t be able to accomplish this dream, at least you tried. And in that attempt you would have reached something you thought you couldn’t.
I have a feeling, this list will keep on growing. 🙂

October Ramblings: Late Night Edition

Sometimes, it takes a while for the heart to catch up with your brain. You know in your mind that enough is enough. You know that this should stop, that it isn’t right anymore. But why do you keep on doing it? Because you feel like you have to. Because you feel like it’s your fault and you want to fix it. Because you feel awful and guilty and, most of all, confused because it’s all happening so fast.

The thing is, when something isn’t right anymore and it’s beyond repair, you should stop forcing it. Stop trying, especially if you’re giving up too much of you.

At the end of the day, if it all implodes anyway despite your efforts, you’ll be left with nothing. You’ll be left tired, worn out and alone. You’ll be left feeling like you don’t know anything anymore. What’s worse is that you don’t even recognize yourself anymore.

Love and respect yourself enough to walk away.

11 Life Hacks For The Emotionally Struggling 20-Something

Thought Catalog

Everybody I know is either in or needs to be in therapy. The common theme among them is that they self-sabotage, and I think we all do, it’s just that not all of us have the discipline to address it. I’m not one to pass judgment on this because I am guilty of it probably more than anyone, but I was able to figure some things out on the journey back from that place. I don’t know your situation. I don’t know what will help you. All I know is that these are the things I learned to hone in on every day and of which have brought me unprecedented happiness. By this I do not mean a sustained state of joy. I mean contentment; the ability to flow through emotions and the ins-and-outs and disappointments and numbing routines of everyday life; how to transcend them. How to garner your…

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Fringe Benefits of Failure (Comic)

Fringe Benefits of Failure (Comic)

Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea then how far the tunnel extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.

It just sums up my life right now perfectly. I had reached a dream of mine and sadly, allowed myself to get distracted thus causing me to fail. Yes, I failed. I failed to stay in a college of law so many dream to be in. I failed to have the law school experience I envisioned myself to have. I failed to have the life I envisioned myself to have at 21-22. I’m not where I dreamed I would be. I’m not even close.

And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.

…but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default

Here is where I can make a difference. I can stand up from the fall I’ve taken and rise like a phoenix after its burning day. I can get over this. I can get through this. I’ve read this speech before but never has its message resonated with me as much as it has now.

J.K. Rowling is proof that yes, life will get better after adversity; that yes, you are more than capable of achieving all that you’ve dreamt for yourself.

Things will get better. I’ve been saying that for a while but I’ve only started believing it.

Read the full speech HERE